4th of July Weekend

On my way home this morning I seen a lot of campers, boats et cetera heading out of town. It took me a minute to figure it out and then I realized why---the holiday weekend. Once I knew why I became happy: it is Independence Day. I do love the fireworks and the get togethers. I have to work this 4th so I will be home alone while my famly is up at the lake. I am envious but will relish the peaceful solitude I will have: no husband, no kids, no committments except work. I love the time to sleep eat and think for myself and myself alone. It really helps me reset myself. So a happy safe 4th of July to everyone.

Simple Solitude

Simple Solitude

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Solitude

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Solitude

Chaos

What a night at work. I had the privilege to be Charge and we had every bed full including our overflow beds and others waiting for beds. I was handling it alright until I had one of the nurses whine to me about how tired she was and how hungry she was and I wasn't being fair because she is pregnant. Now mind you the fact that she only found out 10 days ago she was pregnant and is only 11 weeks along. I had to explain to her that no one had less of an assignment than her and in fact I was the one who should be bitching as I had as much of an assignment as she did on top of being the Charge Nurse. As Charge I get to deal with the doctors, anesthesia, PACU, the E.D., the Postpartum floor, peds and all the nurses and have to attend every delivery that happens as well as deal with everything else. I held my composure and did not come unglued and loose it but I did offer to trade her assignments including being charge. She quickly changed her tune. I didn't get off work until 8:15 am but thanks to all the nurses and the clerks and everyone else things went the best they could. I am glad overall I had a good group of coworkers and they all put their everything into it. Thanks guys.

Mountain Beauty

Just some of the beauty around us. I thought you all would enjoy as much as me.

The Weekend

Well it was certainly an interesting weekend. I worked Friday night and picked the kids up Saturday morning from my sister's because mom was out of town. We had breakfast together then I was off to bed. Overall the kids were pretty good minus the frequent "Mom are you still sleeping" interruptions. We had a wedding to go to on Saturday evening. On the drive down there it rained and hailed so hard that we could barely see where we were going. I was really glad I didn't spend hours on my hair because it would have been ruined. We had a good time and Bryce even mingled and talked to other's (a first for him he is usually in the corner pouting because I am talking to people). Sunday we had talked about going to the Renaissance Festival. We messed around and finally ended up there about two in the afternoon. It was enjoyable minus the rain and the lightning. We headed home around 5 and ended eating at the "Saltgrass Steakhouse". The food was good and the service excellent but it was a little pricey. We came home and decided to take the "KIDS" (aka the dogs) for a trip to the park. So we all loaded up into the Durango (I LOVE MY DURANGO). We went to Carol Butts park which has a pond in the middle. All the dogs loved it even the senior citizen of the group he ran and played as well. We all had a good time. They have changed the park a bit since the days of my youth such as you cannot sneak onto the golf course anymore by using the drainage pipe as a bridge. Back in the day that was quite the adventure.

Things here are strange

Things here are strange. I have no other way to put it. I feel like I am living in a whirlwind of sorts and am loosing who I am. I do not like some of what I am becoming but do not know what to do about it. I feel as if I should cut my loses and move on but I don't know if I am ready to do that. I have a lot of fear of the unknown. I used to be fearless and now find I am not anymore. In fact some of the time different fears can consume me if I let them. I don't know if it is old age taking over and that I am realizing my own mortality and where would my kids be without me. I do not like that I do not take risks anymore. I am not saying that I want to drive off a mountain and see what happens but some of the best things that have happened to me are because of risks I have taken in the past. I feel as if most of the time I only make safe choices and because of it I live in a little predictable box and have lost any fun quotient I had. I am asking all of my friends to help me get out of my box and have fun.

Grand Lake

This past weekend was the first weekend I was able to go up to the lake. Mom and me went up on Friday with the kids and the men followed on Saturday. We had a good time. We went up a four wheel drive trail and collected rocks and enjoyed the scenery. I feel truly blessed to be able to live in such a free beautiful country. The mountains were absolutely spectacular. It really felt great to relax and just veg out. I was able to think about a lot of stuff and a lot of nothing. We stayed on until Monday and it was great. I worked Monday night and got to talk to my oldest bestest (yes I know it is not a word)friend for a while and that topped off the great weekend. Love Ya!

Happy Father's Day

Happy Father's Day to my Dad especially as well as all the other dads out there. I love you Dad!!

American flag

American flag
Originally uploaded by yerffej9.

Happy Flag Day to All. God Bless the USA!!!!!!!!!!!

Viva Las Vegas!!

Vegas was great!!! We all had a good time.One of the many highlights of the trip was the Gretchen Wilson concert. We walked in and got tickets on the floor center stage 18 rows back. She really rocked the house. My birthday celebration was awesome and we had lots of fun. I hope everyone is doing great. Love to all.