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Yo no quiero escribe en español. Me hace pienso que estoy en el trabajo y la necesidad de decir el EMPUJON. Hice esto para mi cuñado "el último día". El es una, bien no palabras realmente lo pueden describir. Yo un honoró para formar parte de su familia.

Freedom and other ramblings

Freedom is a beautiful thing. For Today I am Free. Hubby at work, mom out of town, kids at school. I can do or not do whatever I want. I guess I will start with a hot bath and reading my book and then whatever. I cannot believe what my oldest child told me the middle of last week-he is entering puberty at the tender age of TEN!!! I am not that old to have a child in puberty. Good thing my first one was born when I was a child myself. I have some needy family members who I don not care for much and now they have had the audacity to ask if my Hubby can co-sign for their 17 year old married with a kid kid. Who in the FUCK do they think we are -Uncle and Auntie Money Bags. They can go screw themselves and the bicycles they rode in on. Wastes of skin. On to better stuff. I still may go to the Jason Aldean concert on Wednesday in Fort Collins (a friend at work may go with me). I suggest everyone check out Martina McBride's new CD Timeless. She re-recorded several old songs and to stay true to the old sound they used microphones from the 1968 and before and no guitars or amps newer than 1965. On this CD includes my parents song "I never promise you a Rose Garden". Have a good day and Much Love.

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This is the real me, smiling and happy.

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State of Affairs

Well it has been a strange fall, well year as far as that goes. My Sand man has had it rough this year-several broken bones and two procedures as well as dealing with the fact that I am my own person and have my own life plan. Since his knee surgery we have had it rather rocky-with him being insecure and me being unwilling to deal with his jealousy. We are finally starting to work things out and aren't at each others throats on a daily basis. We are starting to relate to each and our emotional needs, instead of trying to win the fight. All this said I am still ready for him to return to work as he is now so lovey he won't let me even take a bath without stopping into tell me he loves me. I am starting to enjoy the closeness but would really like to be able to soak, read, rest, or meditate without being diturbed. When I ask him to give me some private time he then takes it as if I don't want him around. I am not sure how to ask this and have him understand it is not an insult to him that I want reflection time. Any suggestions are greatly appreciated.Love to all, and Many Blessings.

Longing

I often long for the past to relive what I have done or who I have been with. Does any one else do this or am I the only one. It seems that everyone is looking forward to tomorrow or at least living in today. I miss being a carefree child playing in the shop, riding my bike all day long in the summer, sleeping in on Saturdays. I miss the freedom of adolescence to explore the world without the responsibilities of adulthood. I feel as if everyday life is a heavy weight on my head. I want to just have a day or two to do as I please- sleep, eat, rest, meditate, reflect, and relax. I want to be able to talk freely scream or cry with out having to explain why. I try to write in my notebook but then there is always those who invade privacy so I don't have freedom of speech. I know I am whining but it is amazing how my outlook would change with a couple days off from work home husband and kids just me. Anyone else feel this way?

DYSPLASIA

DYSPLASIA--an alteration in cell growth resulting in cells that differ in size or shape or appearance often as a result of constant irritation. In lay terms pre-cancerous cells that without drastic changes will result in cancer. I am now facing this with my husband and his stomach. He doesn't like to be told what to do so I may get to experience watching someone I love suffer a long torturous death. He is working on trying to follow the doctors instructions and I pray he is able to. I do not want to have this experience or more importantly my children to have it. I have lost many important to me at an early age and know it effects you forever. I pray for strength and guidance and peace in my life and my journey here on earth.