Boy it has been a while

It sure has been a long time since I have felt like posting anything anywhere. I guess you can say I am in a kind of a funk. I had an awesome road trip in August with the kids and my mom. We went through New Mexico, Arizona, Nevada, Utah and back to Colorado. We were gone for about 12 days and seen quite a few sites including: The Grand Canyon and Moab. The amount of people @ the Grand Canyon was overwhelming but it was beautiful and Moab was gorgeous. We spent time at my sisters in Las Vegas were we just relaxed and swam in their pool. When we returned it was time for the kids to start back to school and I joined them. I am acquiring my bachelors degree in nursing through the University of Phoenix. I am now in my fifth class and am enjoying it. In October I was dealt a devastating personal blow- which I will not go into here. It did open my eyes to how unhappy I am in my current state and how it is time to act upon it. A real wake up call. I am trying to persue personal happiness and keep a balance of that with the rest of the world. I know I can not become a hermit in the mountains for many reasons but the thought is very tempting. I am hoping 2009 will be more happy for me and all.

A quick catch-up

Well the ablation went well and is working well. I am now a full time charge nurse at work and really enjoy it. I have bought a bike and have been riding it but not as much as I should. I now have two middle schoolers and am 36 years old. I have three beautiful great nieces and one gorgeous great nephew and another one on the way. I am ready for summer time. I have already gotten sunburnt in a weird pattern from sleeping on the trampoline. I still love MY Durango and my dog.

Ablation

Well after a long time of suffering through years of heavy bleeding during my time and some time just because, I have sought treatment. In March I will have a uterine ablation, in order to prepare me for this I recieved an injection of DEPO LUPRON. It stimulates perimenopause- hot flashes, night sweats all of it. Well yesterday I had one and in was intense especially because I normally am COLD. I apologize to all those hot flashers that suffered from me turning the heat up.
Here is more info on uterine ablation.


GYNECARE THERMACHOICE
How it works?
This is how the procedure is done, step by step:
First, a soft, flexible balloon (made of a silicone material, which eliminates the risk of allergy for latex-sensitive women) attached to a thin catheter (tube) is inserted into the vagina, through the cervix, and placed gently into the uterus. No incision is required. Then, the balloon is inflated with a sterile fluid that expands the balloon to fit the size and shape of the uterus, conforming to the unique contours of your body.
Insertion and inflation
The fluid in the balloon is heated and circulated for 8 minutes while the uterine lining is treated.
Treatment and monitoring
When the treatment cycle is completed, all the fluid is withdrawn from the balloon, and the catheter is removed. Nothing remains in the uterus. The uterine lining has been treated and will slough off, or shed, like a period.
Deflation and removal
GYNECARE THERMACHOICE balloon
Note: Actual size of GYNECARE THERMACHOICE balloon when inflated is approximately the size of a quarter.

Cold

It has been bitter cold lately. I do not mind the cold but come on. I have been freezing lately but do not dare to touch the thermostat because then the bill will be even more insane than it already is. The head of my bed is against the north wall of the house and we do not have a head board. So while trying to sleep the cold seeps through the wall and freezes my head. I have gone to sleeping with a baby blanket wrapped around my head and over my face. It is light weight enough that I don't feel like I am smothering but I don't wake up with my face freezing and sore. I am sure I look hilarious with that and my CPAP on but i would rather be comfortable.

Broken

I have just finished the book "Broken" by Megan Hart. It is billed as erotica-and can cause a bit of heat but it is also about a woman and how her life changed after marriage. There is a quote in there that touched me so deeply and I feel applies to me and my life. I have reread it several times and want to share it here:

A red ribbon, a poem. Our love, mad, bad and dangerous to know. Once it had been enough to build our lives around. Now I wasn't so sure, and both of us knew it. We were broken, brittle and fragile. The question was, were we still precious to each other? Or instead of everything falling into place, had it fallen into pieces.


Of course if you want to borrow this book or others just ask.

Juliana Grace

I have another great niece. She was born at 9:18 AM. Weighed in at 6lbs 9 oz and 18 3/4 inches long. She is absolutely gorgeous.

The Truth

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it is harder every time. You will break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You will fight with your best friend. You will blame a new love for things an old one did. You will cry because time is passing too fast, and you will eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you have never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you will never get back.

Alexana Irene

Alexana Irene was born on November 25, 2007 at 0156. She delivered at home and then was taken to Saint Anthony's North hospital via ambulance. She is doing well. She weighed 5 lbs 11 ounces and is 18 1/2 inches long. She is gorgeous.